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Sunday, August 24, 2003 . 8/24/2003 06:54:00 pm

Wohoo another day just passed by me man....But these few days really damn tired with many many stuffs sia....Now at jac's house chilling out....Just finished helping her with all her stuffs man....So now waiting for her maid to cook spagetti...YUMMY!!!!!!!!!And now in K.O mode sia....Hang out with symon,joe,mingjie,tim and gracie out till 4a.m last night....Those few jokers damn funny sia and really i was laughing the whole day...But we did pray as well and i know God has something for me to do and i need to sort all these stuffs out....And one happy thing is sub-consciously i'm forgetting about the bitter past...that's God's grace man.....Dont play play but must pray pray sia......But still got a few busy weeks up ahead for me sia....Sonic festival next week,got to work for nivea,got to work at kings for the week after and jac's wedding on the 13th sep sia....and before that on the 5th i think got to go for jac's briefing....And the super bad part is TESTS ARE COMING!!!!!!!!How i dread that sia....But no choice man gotta study hard cos i still left only 2 mths so must GAMBATE!!!!!!!!But all i know is i gotta lose some weight sia....Put on weight liao....

Tuesday, August 19, 2003 . 8/19/2003 01:14:00 am

Wah long long never write liao....Very busy sia these few days...But i really got short term memory sia...I forget what i was doing on friday...GRRR...... Oh yah was at the beach with liana and saw this "baywatch guy"(thats wat liana say and i saw her ogling at that guy always sia....haha....wait till she see this....she'll kill me man)....THat guy was damn disgusting....He was wearing a yellow(can u belive this....it's like bright YELLOW!!!!!!!!!And the swimming trunk is gonna hurt yr eyes if you stare for 10secs more)...Damn yucky sia and he tot he look cool though....Halfway i was talking to liana and she was like:" yucks that guy is doing push-up all of a sudden.... my mind went ??????.....He's trying damn hard to be amazing(i tot of it to be amusing....A banana superman doing dangerous stunt with his "awesome striking yellow trunk") and cool(and i think he's "goon doo"....doing push-ups on sand....not pain meh his hand...can endure quite a few)...BUt i'll suggest him to do more sit-up than push-up cos he's got this big belly....think he drank like a big barrel of beer yesterday night and decided to chill out at sunset bay the next day....Ok enough about this cute baywatch guy liana has been checking out(opps!!!!!!!haha!!!!!).....Then sat went for church service and really man....It's always so nice at church with my friends then headed to marcus'friend birthday party.....and i wondered hard why i go there....I'm like extra loh cos i knew noone there....haha!!!!!!I slept around 1a.m that day and sunday woke up like 6 to work sia....Then after work went out with my sec friend who's going to army soon....Sad sia everybody going to tekong then i can be sian for the coming few months liao....But luckily nowadays my schedule damn packed...Got lotsa stuffs to do....GOT to help out sonic festival that's coming on 30th Aug... Then gotta help out jac's wedding on coming sunday at her house....ANd to be her usher on the 13th sep....Then i'll bring my whistle along and behave like a traffic police....And i'll wear pink for that day to promote my pinky club.....Sounds cool man!!!!!!!!:)I think ppl will tot of me to be siao....haha!!And sian....MID SEMESTER TESTS ARE COMING!!!!!!!!!And i dont really know wat the lecturers are saying everytime......THis week got to start loh....And my project partner wants me to puke blood sia....Kept asking rubbish..think rubbish and talk rubbish....cant stand it and becos i'll be arranging with my project lecturer the final yr project interview next wk, he got scared cos he hasn't been doing any work and "offered" to help useless stuffs!!!!!!!Got so pissed off....Initially dont want to help then last minute trying to sort out things....Haiy somemore a guy..... but dont bother to help out at all.....and i really mean all.....He dont come for meetings or will be late and stay only at the woskshop for like 15min the most....and he only met me like 3 times before loh.....that a**!!!!!!!Well enough about this guy as well....hee the other day saw a guy in my school who look like jay zhou so much(feel like going up towards to ask if he can sing and see if he sound like jay as well a not....and can also ask for his name and hp no also i dont mind....hahahaha.....Think im too stressed up liao)....And my friend,wai lim,let me see this dogey msg...This weird girl who wanted to greet him good night give lotsa pattern like that.....wat sweetie chocolatey marshymellow volkaly chunky blah blah blah and then good nightie...Wah i feel like kicking her a**.....Sound so mushy and flirty loh....and my friend is not gd looking one loh....got buck teeth and not of a good character kinda guy....cant believe it....dont know nowadays what are the girls thinking of.....Haiy...Anyway gotta pray now liao...God here i come!!!!!!!!

Friday, August 15, 2003 . 8/15/2003 02:17:00 am

Haiy today is a sad day for me man....Got to know from one of my classmates that my ex boyfriend went back to his ex....I'm not sad as in the fact that i still have feelings for him but that he kept it from me.... And he make it sound that he will not ignore me becos of his ex..LIAR!!!!!!!! I felt cheated and hurt at the same time....Wat an idiot!!!!!!!!And i cried like hell after i know it.....But it's a relieve cos at least i got to know something which i really wanted to know for the past few mths...Though sad but it's a new phase for my life again....I knew i grew stronger after this matter.....And well something comforting that i got is freinds surrounding me alwaya show that they care for me...... And got to meet liana today and she's staying at my place today.......MUWAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's the reason why i'm still not asleep yet...hehe....Got to sleep now and yah got to pray for sonic festival.....

Thursday, August 14, 2003 . 8/14/2003 12:22:00 am

WOHOO another day just went by again..Gee nowadays very busy sia...Till i become more blur liao...But somehow always enjoy my wed with my cell group friends...Manage to talk to a couple of them....PPl like roomy,charlie brown,liana,sandy,jean.....Gee all my favourites sia....And there's this guy in my cell group super vain one!!!!!!!Got many many pairs of shoes(but he say very cheap shoes..... but i think the amt add up could buy an apartment i believe..ha) and he put on mask????Does guys do that????And take care of his wholeeeeeeeeee body....I dont think i'm to the extent(just worse only....but hey i'm a girl sia got the privielige loh)....And the weirdiest part is he enjoys wearing nice boxers....And has he got to tell others???He seem really proud of it which i find it weird cos guys shun this kinda questions....And even has glow in the dark(scared of darkness man this guy...must be....)And contradicting part is my other friend john hems dont bother at all....See a huge contrast in the two of them and i find it real funny..... hahha....Well at least they make my day unlike my classmates...a pain in my neck....Just make my blood boils...I'll be very thankful if they dont come and talk to me....I'll enjoy the peace i have man....Seriously serious i cant stand most of them...Trying very hard to control liao....Thank God i only left 2 mths and dont have to see them liao loh....YEEPEEE!!!!!!!WEll it sounds mean but wait till anybody trys it and i believe one will wish to just borrow a gun from nearby police post to shoot them....Well thank God for the day and yes my project is about to be complete....Hope i get it done by next week.....Alright pinky club chairman gotta call up my buddy buddy eric liao.....

Tuesday, August 12, 2003 . 8/12/2003 10:52:00 am

Haiy gonna have a test later soon but my whole mind is about the zoo game my brother downloaded the other day..Damn fun sia....Trying very hard to focus but +dudh+..Seriously i dont really care for this lab test cos i know i'll definitely not score....And also i've been feeling sick since sunday...My whole head hurts like hell and i got no time to see a doctor....And have been restless these few days....Luckily eric came and accompany me to chinatown to walk walk(Die liao more and more like an obasan....Next time cant marry how????)(Eric say he'll consider me if he doesnt get married by age of 35..By then i better "zhao lor" first...WHO WANTS HIM MAN!!ha ha...think i'm being mean to my "part-time bf"..That's wat he says and by the time his gf went overseas....I'll be his temporary full time gf....Sounds crazy that guy....)....Well anyway stop all these nonsense...BUT at times really missed my poly days with eric and my classmates who all graduate at the same time except for me lah....+pui+So sad sia...Was hearing the song Graduation and suddenly re-caped back the happy,carefree and fun days in my sec with one of the pinky club member LIANA.... I remembered i recorded in her voicemail to let her know we're buddies buddies forever....It's like u'll always want someone nice and caring to stay by your side forever to know how's she doing and stuffs ya know....Though times we quarrel but i seriously dreaded the feeling for i'll be in my seriously serious depression mood liao....And eric will see me cry like hell...But luckily we only quarrel a few times....Less than 5x if i'm not mistaken....But it's really wonderful to know that we still keep in contact after leaving school for like four years liao...AND have been best friends since sec 3....That's about 5 years loh.... And my another best friend is eric loh...That stupid guy.... Haha...I must always scold him b4 i can talk about him or i will be very bua song.... Sounds very pervert sia me....WEll but he's always there for me since my 1st year in poly...Without this brother of mine...Idont think i can take so many blows that upset me...He's always there to show concern and there to give comfort...He never chose to leave me alone to settle my problems but there to solve them....One great benefactor in my life and the most depressing thing for him is to know me...HAHAHAHA....Well i'm always supposed to treat him for a meal but end up he'll be treating me that kind of thing...When i'm down...There's surely bubble tea awaiting for me to collect(i can sense the bubble tea calling me and eric's wallet getting lighter....HEE...)...And still a couple of good friends whom i still keep in touch with....Gonna meet them up this week and next...OH YAH MY TEST...SHIT GOTTA STUDY NOW LIAO!!!!!

Sunday, August 10, 2003 . 8/10/2003 09:58:00 pm

Well not feeling well today... Feel so giddy now....Think i'm gonna fall sick.... Well learn quite a lot of cool stuffs from pastor derrick.... He's a funny guy and he impress me as he's able to allow ppl to pay full attention on wat he's saying.....And he shared ablout his personal stuffs regarding about this woman who was angry with him for suspecting him and say she forgive him....A contradicting part but he made it sound so funny.... But i was reading a part of the bible on the train and got to read on Roman 8:36 and i love that part... Well that part just popped to my mind.... And i was wondering if there's actually this verse..Think God is trying to convey some msg but i cant really get it.... And one thing i wanna thank God that is my uncle accepted Christ and turn over a new leaf.... Praise God for his wonderful might!!!!!!!And i really feel proud for my uncle....And i'll continue to pray for him to stay strong in his walk with God....At times i really feel so so so impressed with wat God is able to do for us sinners... And i know for one thing is that no matter how we chose to turn away from Him...As long as we have the heart to go back to Him again...He's willing to open his hands to welcome His child back....And i feel bad for backsliding once....
I'm coming back to the heart of worship and it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things i made
And it's all about You, it's all about You Jesus

Well suddenly this song just came into my head.... And yah was excited earlier on as Liana,Sandy and i decided to form a girl band....Yeah finally a girl band....After a long long time of daydreaming and it's gonna come true...I'll be playing the keyboard as one of the girls who's close to me is gonna teach me....YEEPEE!!!!!!!!!!And i cannot say say only... I'll try my very best..... well that's my day and my friend took a picture of me and i had it as a wallpaper on my handphone(I LOOK SO PRETTY AND PINKY)....THat's the good thing about colour phone.....+cheers+ And yah talking about pinky reminds me of today's fun part....WE had form a group called the pinky aka sweetie pie's club....Ha ha!!!!!!!Cos the girls love pink and it happen that all of us had something pink....Then i just tried to act cute(well actually i'm cute but nvr mind thats not the main issue) and we had lotsa fun and uncles sitting opp me was like looking at me and their facial expression goes like"this ger siao liao si bo"....But too bad for them cos i'm the bo chup type and my skin is super duper thick... MWAHAHA TOO BAD!!!!!!! For girl's are always on the upper hand nowadays.... So guys out there just shut up and listen!!!!!!!FROM NOW ON THE GIRLS ARE THE DOMINATING ONE AND NOT THE SENSITIVE OR TEENY WEENY KIND!!!!!!I think most likely quite a number of the guys are like that and love to shift blame to us...+pui+But nvr mind i cant judge liao or God is gonna pull my ear liao... :)
Got a new song for my pinky club members...
WE are the pinky girls out from the pink pink world
WE look so sweet and adorable
ALL the guys cant resist our pinkiness
AND most importantLY the cutiness
WE have four PINKY SWEETIE members
that is ME the pinky gal
Who is from the Pinky WORLD

HAHAHAAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!tHAT'S all folks...lah lah lah lah lah lah(still cant get enough of that song)

~Word Of The Day~
Ask and SeEK from the Lord And It Shall Be Given To You

Thursday, August 07, 2003 . 8/07/2003 12:04:00 am

Haiy... Well dont seem to know why nowadays my temper is from bad to worse.... I dont really encounter such stuffs all the time... The time i remembered i last had this feeling was like 1+ yr ago back... Was feeling moody and no motivation to do anything at all... Now having the feeling back again... It's really sucky cos during that period of time i got so sian i dont even have the mood to study... I'm really stressed up now that i'll repeat my module again and i cant... Feeling very very vexed and lost... At times i really wish to just have someone by my side and be there for me all the time.... But to no avail... It'd like that when i fall back to that dark pit again.... I got to learn to stand up again by myself... Its difficult but i knew i'll be stronger..... But just hate the feeling that cause me to be sick of everything... Even friends and classmates... Just ANYTHING they say to irritate me will just allow me to blow up..... It's really just so not me.... Cant believe i change so much within such a short time....Have been reminded alot of my unhappy past.... Maybe just need time for myself now and think things through.... Dont wish to switch on the leave-me-alone week but guess no choice for that... But i really just want to treat all my friends very nice and just truely from my heart.... Lord, i pray that i could just go back to the same old me and not feeling so sucky right now...Life has it' up and down and i know U do this for reasons.... I just hope i will be stronger and let me know why U allow this to happen to me....Reveal to me Your will Lord.... I pray this in Jesus name.... Amen.....

Monday, August 04, 2003 . 8/04/2003 11:48:00 pm

Well today's a cool day for me and cant wait to get started.Hmmm... But kinda rush too.... Cos was editing my assignment and luckily this friend from my lecture hall help me with the stuffs and was able to finish in a short time... And i find that i'm still a stupid a** with no sense of direction at all!!!!!!!! I still dont really knoe the way in my school.... Thank God my friend accompany me the whole day.... He's quite a poor fella cos he got to tolerate that mouth of mine that kept yakking non-stop during lecture and still got to help me with my stuffs when he has done his.... HAHAHA!!!!!!!!Seems like i found another Eric in my life...(Eric is my closest guy friend and have been buddy buddy for 3+ years and another victim as well :p) And later i met my friend and went to mac... He bought a happy meal and guess wat... I got another new toy.... Yeah!!!!!! And that toy resemble him a lot.... haha!!!!!He better not see my post or i'm gonna get it from him.... But liked that toy cos it's cute... It's a blue octopus.... SOOOOOOO nice..... And receive an e-mail from my best buddy of the world... Her name is liana lai.... Very meaningful and i love every part of it... NO wonder people say kids are always so innocent and sweet....And i love to look deep into theri eyes cos that's when you see true innocence..... Thats why they can never lie and even if they did.... Well it'll be darn obvious unless you got problems.....
~Many Many Word Of The Day~

What does love mean? A group of professional people posed this question
to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, What does love mean? The answers they
got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.

When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her
toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even
when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.
Rebecca - age 8

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You
know that your name is safe in their mouth.
Billy - age 4

Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne
and they go out and smell each other.
Karl - age 5

Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French
fries without making them give you any of theirs.
Chrissy - age 6

Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.
Terri - age 4

Love is when my Mommy makes coffee for my Daddy and she takes a sip
before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.
Danny - age 7

Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing,
you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are
like that. They look gross when they kiss.
Emily - age 8

Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening
presents and listen.
Bobby - age 7

If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend
whom you hate.
Nikka - age 6

Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it
everyday. Noelle - age 7

Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still
friends even after they know each other so well.
Tommy - age 6

During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all
the people watching me and saw my Daddy waving and smiling. He was the
only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.
Cindy - age 8

My Mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing
me to sleep at night.
Clare - Age 6

Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.
Elaine -age 6

Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is
handsomer than Brad Pitt.
Chris - age 7

Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone
all day.
Mary Ann - age 4

I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old
clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.
Lauren - age 4

I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me
because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her.
Bethany - age 4

When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars
come out of you.
Karen - age 7

Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's
Mark - age 6

You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you
mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.
Jessica - age 8

Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was
asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring
child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbour was
an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the
man cry,the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto
his lap, and just sat there. When his mother asked him what he had said
to the neighbour, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him

The best political, social, and spiritual work we can do is to withdraw
the projection of our shadow onto others. - Carl Jung

Sunday, August 03, 2003 . 8/03/2003 10:06:00 pm

Well another weekend just passed again...Haiy at times really think time fly just too fast...Well my weekend went just sweet and simple... Haha i bought a fish for myself on saturday... So proud of it cos that's kinda considered my first pet.... Just pray that it wont die so soon(i dont think i'm like the niece of the dentist in finding nemo)....I named it Lucky cos i won some money when i played mahjong with my parents... Really considered a miracle cos whoever seeen me playing that game b4 will know how "good" i am.... But well just to accompany my parents that day and it's also been a long time since i last played mahjong... And i went for facial today... The beautian want my life man!!!!!!!Squeeze my face and nose so hard... As if i never pay money or i'm cheapo like that!!!!!I pay full amt leh... Nobody tell her izzt... But just pray my face wont go rotten... Just lie down on the bed for one over hour and i dozed off halfway... I HATE THE HOT STEAM they used to open up the pores...So hot and stuffy like that...At that moment i felt like a char siew bao like that...EEEEEE......Haiy gotta rush for my homework now...tomorrow must hand in.... Sian.... I HATE HATE HATE MANY MANY HOMEWORKS!!!!!!!!(Well actually only one assignment only)