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Monday, September 27, 2004 . 9/27/2004 10:03:00 am

well tired but luckily gonna do my free trt for this month....shiok! come to think of it 4 mths just passed like that working there.... but i wont continue there cos i know that i dont have time to do wat i want most of the time! and i really wanna go for mission trip....was thinking of it next yr.... and planning for my plans for next yr....need a lot of prayers man....hmmmmm....but cant wait for next yr to come!:)

Friday, September 24, 2004 . 9/24/2004 07:43:00 pm

Goodness me....got a long week and feel very tired and exhausted....feeling guilty of the fact that i try to lie to get myself a branded bag i like a lot.... and still got the cheek to say i wanna be a light in my work place....though i didnt get the bag finally i still feel a sense of guilt there.....wonder most of the times why one tends to overlook their own integrity to get what they want....just like me although last min i resist the temptation but it doesnt mean i get out of it....for i tot of it and was on the verge to do it..... very tired of working at the spa....feel drained out though pay was high... broading over sales cos this month mine was really very high and colleagues are jealous over it and cant blame me what.... i nvr pushed my sales and it just happen that mine was this high then what can i do...hurst! i believe in treating customers well even when they're not buying package but my colleagues cannot make it one sia....only nice when they're buyinh package....haiy....but God is good..... He help me a lot in my work area cos i really cannot make it if He's not with me....thank u Father for being so kind....

Tuesday, September 21, 2004 . 9/21/2004 12:18:00 pm

Hmmmm gotta cancel the burberry bag cos i really go no idea where to get this bag lolz...not sold in spore lelz... nvr mind see other bag to add on to my wish list....haha.....God is really amazing... i didnt bother about my sales for this month but i'm already the highest sales and best part my commision is so much higher than last mth when i kept on striving for the sales to get jon a bass....but anyway i got it for him liao....keke....blur sotong me accidentally msg him abt the bass i was trying to get for him..actually wanted to msg marcus who has been so helpful to look out for me....then no choice i give it to him that sat...grrrrr... but it's good cos i have been thinking of getting him a bass where he can serve for sonic edge ministry cos that's what God wants him to be at.... and i'm proud of the guys where the faith is so strong and so real.... think thats the only way to show jon how i support him in this ministry i'm so proud of and where i can dwell in God's presence and His grace towards all of us....

Friday, September 17, 2004 . 9/17/2004 11:04:00 am

haiy just got into a very big trouble!!!! i kept the key for the renovation guys and now my manager is damn angry sia....haiy got a lot of explanation to do....sian....didnt know will create so many trouble.....sigh...hope i dont get scolded till jia lat jia lat.... and yeah working at dr teng yesterday was fun cos it's been a long time i helped him alone...normally working with liana....and it was really damn busy....from start work to end i work non-stop sia....phew.....but was good...sitting front desk at the spa too much make me feel sian....once in a while working so hard is definitely fun for me....

Tuesday, September 14, 2004 . 9/14/2004 01:07:00 am

*sob sob* realise that my sis really broke up with her bf...tot it was just a major quarrel...feel sad and thinking to myself...i'm not going to see him again...so sad when things turned out this way...why? i wish to have an answer but i csnt though i try to give "satisfactory answer"....9 yrs and things changed to this state...recalled the day when he cried... recall the times he came to my house and all the things he did for my sis.... why would things turn out this way?they know best but i'm affected.... i dislike his attiude i admit but i do admire him for the love he gave to my sis which is so genuine and true... i feel sian now....very very sian.... know my sis dont feel good herself and i cant ask her why.she wouldnt tell......

Sunday, September 12, 2004 . 9/12/2004 01:21:00 pm

Hmmmm went shppping and got very tempted yesterday...feel like buying the all the stuffs at orchard...well manage to get some cheap cheap good good lingerie...saw audrey while queuing up.. went to burbery to look for the bag i wanted to buy but the lady says they only have it in japan...anyone going to japan recently???then i can tong pang a bit.. think i'll get my LV purse first provided i really got enough for next mth....then all my wishing list column will be fulfilled..but not to disappoint ppl...i'll definitely have more coming up to update any folks who'll be willing to buy for me...if not pls dont see too much....keke...and ya jon help me with my blog stuff cos i know nuts abt it(though i'm in the computer field of study...hurst)...but looking forward for my stuff next mth...

well came back yesterday night and saw my sister's bf at my house w/o my sis....before he left,he suddenly cry and asked if my sister like someone else...i was so shocked and taken back cos i dont know anything at all....even my parents too...he was so poor thing..cos they have been together for 9 yrs and he treasured the relationship a lot...though i really hate him at times for his attitude problem,cant help but feel sad...then he kept calling to check if shes at home...but she was at her friend's place....then he actually waited at the basement from 1 plus a.m till ard like 7 then he came up to my house....haiy...then we were supposed to go for breakfast to celebrate my sis's birthday...on hearing that he's coming,she backed out last min...was feeling very sad for him cos i can tell he was trying to please my parents and us....i really feel like crying already and when i reached choa chu kang mrt i really cant make myself stay and went home crying....i really dont wanna see things happen this way...why cant most things just remain simple and sweet...why must there be conflicts and disagreement....why cant things be sort out in a easy way w'o hurting anyone....a lot of doubts in my head....my sis is someone i really look upon to...from dress sense to even relationship wise...i really admire her...she's like my star who has the confidence and attitude....but then when this issue happen i'm at a loss and feel sian....i cried badly cos i feel for the bf and i'm used to seeing the two of them together...they passed through a lot of tough periods which i know most couple cant do it...not even anyone i knew of at all....i feel the anger for myself for this shitty issue...anger issues back again in my head...hate the way things turn out this way....hate the fact why my sis is behaving like that...

Monday, September 06, 2004 . 9/06/2004 10:06:00 am

Hmmmm now the sixth liao....time pass by so fast lo....well was doing praying on the mrt yesterday and God just revealed to me like....you know fang fang i have blessed you with a lot of things and you tend to look at the bad area...and i was convicted once again....cos i know i like to grumble abt my job....and come to think of it i used to have a hard time looking for one and getting worried abt it...God says He'll provide and He did it for me...i shouldnt be grumbling.... and i got what i want... at least a more stable job for 6 mths....though time management wise i have to adjust here and there..i know i should just do my best and not grumble...like what jon says..i'm supposed to be the light and add testimonals to my colleagues and not grumble or be a bad testimonial to them..... hmmmmm....so i just try my best doing my job....but my blur colleague still kena scolded by me jia lat jia lat at times for making mistakes that were uncalled for....:P
was talking to john chiong on sat and he was telling me abt stuffs and ya i really appreciate his help though at first i was like...huh he want to talk to me ah....that kinda thingy....hahaha..but it was cool adn just felt that we lack accountability to the lao da...i mean it's always good to catch up and let them know what we have done and blah blah blah....but we never...bad fang fang and jon....hmmm...
went to flea mrkt and bought two t-shirts for only $1.50....real paul frank t-shirt and miss selfrige top...and jon bought me one (m)phosis skirt that the lady was selling and nvr wore it cos the size too big for her..but just nice for me! :)
well weird part is this mth commision i hit quite high for the starting month though i never push for sale at all...haha....well God loves to provide if we are gd girls and boys...;)

Wednesday, September 01, 2004 . 9/01/2004 10:30:00 am

finally another off day...waited for so long... trying to ses how the job opportunities are now so easier to run away after that from the spa...haha! though this month my commision is the highest...but dont like the job cos always commission thingy,everyone make a fuss over it... haiy three more months to go...and yah since i started working this job for not long i was too engrossed with my commision that i neglected a lot of things....God and jon and my family...maybe friends as well.... and things i wanted to do....feel sian abt it.. and feel convicted for last SE service....and when they get me to pray for other ppl i was like i cant cos i feel guilty for nglecting God and i couldnt make myself step forward at all... and when they sang Breathe, tears just roll down... well a lot of times i would want Hin in my life but becos of material stuffs i tend to brood over then i forget abt Him.... I pray to the Lord to take all these tots of having more money and anger things out of my mind and for the next few months i wont be touching sales unless customer asking me for it or my regular customers.... Cos i just want to concentrate on Him and loved ones...