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Tuesday, November 30, 2004 . 11/30/2004 10:18:00 am

was feeling terribe yesterday cos got fever,cough,blocked nose and whole body aching like hell.... now feeling better after the medication but i think the medicine all quite strong and i a bit cannot tahan cos my stomach growling like siao..... but well today going out with boy boy to watch movie cos it's our 10th month....kekeke.... and i can finally shop a bit cos normally no time or no money.....kekeke...

Sunday, November 28, 2004 . 11/28/2004 07:29:00 pm

still feel sick today.... slept from 2-6+ today after church.... really too exhausted already.... bring blur blur to SE service.... haha.... say marcus look like my spa exec. bf.... haha contract coming o an end and preparing myself to go for the camp.... feel very happy cos that's the first time my parents allow me to go in such a positive manner....last time will nag nag but now just ask me the location... hmmmm tim fly fast.... but looking forward for a fresh start! and doing my nails next month and my hair for christmas! :)

Saturday, November 27, 2004 . 11/27/2004 01:01:00 am

haiy tired day with work today.... new colleague is bossy.... horrible feeling.... 5 more days to go... need to pray for STEP programme.... ppl encouraging me to go... felt God telling me to do so.... haiy.... no money liao like that.... Pray that He'll provide.... Amen...

Wednesday, November 24, 2004 . 11/24/2004 12:46:00 am

yeah boy boy is back last night....was so excited to see him yesterday.... he gave me abig hug.... miss him so much lolz.... hee had delifrance with him this noon....hee happy happy!

Sunday, November 21, 2004 . 11/21/2004 09:11:00 am

cramp....sucky....headache....sucky....jon not back....sucky....ok play mahjong now....YEAH LIFE IS FULFILLING...HAHAHHA!!!!!!!BYE BYE BORING DAY!!!!! 2 more days to see my boy liao!

Saturday, November 20, 2004 . 11/20/2004 09:23:00 pm

Hmmmm went for the conference and was thinking of taking up the step programme as john encourage me to as he says it'll be beneficial to me....agreed to what he says but need to wait for boy to come back and discuss with him.... having insomnia again that's why woke up early to surf net and did my blog.... hmmmm two days away and he'll be back... have the so near yet so far feeling.... missing him terribly now and hope he's back already.... still having tummy ache and a bit of headache.... since yest become like that liao... sian... and feel the stress for not getting a job cos leaving that sucky company soon... if still cant find one i'll look slowly and go for short holiday first.... need to chill out a bit....getting drained out and not having enough rest.... these 2 days even when i have my off days were to clear up my stuffs and clean up everything for jon cos he's coming back ma.... hope to have more rest and monday faster come!!!!!!!!!!!
Arghhh miss fang is now depressed if i cant get a job when i leave the new place... it's really a struggle on how to keep the faith going like that....*struggle struggle* really wish to go back to the technical industry....haiy... wonder if i could really get that job that i went for the interview....quite sucky that a few agencies called up to ask me if i prefer other jobs as i got quite a few yrs of exp in the customer service line....grrrr... get lost i dont want!!!!!!!
Having tummy ahe and headache earlier on.... but head still feeling giddy and stressed out....sian!

Friday, November 19, 2004 . 11/19/2004 02:13:00 am

Wa only manage to wake up at 1+ p.m today...was so tired after these few days..been busy with so many stuffs man... then washed all the bedsheets everything cos my boy finally coming back.... the more i tot of it the more i get happy and excited.... wanted to share with him everything that went through these 2 wks and miss him a lot lolz....initially not so bad but when he's coming back then i started to think of him so much...and kept thinking of the times when he'll sayang my head....haiy....sad sad.... but nvr mind persevere a while more....also very fed p today cos the stupid company last min get me to claim 8 hrs so i dont have to work tomorrow....was thinking of claiming during sonic camp....stupid one lelz they all....luckily i leaving soon and no need to face up with all the stupid faces there... cant stand some of them there.... but poor blur blur got to handle them and kena bully liao.... if i there can still help her a bit but too bad i leaving liao.... she's actually a nice person but copy cat lolz....really hate the fact to know she went to buy the exact same dress and same colour somemore.... no sense of originality lelz.... angry sia....think my mood very good llike that... adn copy ppl talk some more....buay tahan..... dont know why... she very funny and kept calling me zhen fang jie jie!!!dont know must tell her how many times i'm younger by her one yr..*pengz* haiy seems like i still got quite a few stuffs i need to get.... but $ not enough...and dont wanna spend much also or jon will go about my ear and started to chant liao.... i mean advise me on my savings...:P
been drained out recently and trying to stay better focus on God... now readin Job and find it a good book...going to study more on this book.... and trying to get to Psalms.... keke...

Monday, November 15, 2004 . 11/15/2004 12:29:00 am

Hmmmm havent really been sleeping well these few days... having insomnia.. think i'm brooding over too many things.... got quite a few stuffs i need to settle asap and have been drained out recently... and my ah boy still in aussie and dont want to come back....hahaha.... nvr mind 8 more days... i have already waited for 9 days!!!!!!!!! But the feeling is quite ok...not like the previous times... maybe becos this time i suppressed until jia lat jia lat or i think i'll be buying a ticket to visit him....well work has been sian also and the usual politics ard in the all females environment when all tend to be freaking ______.... the lines to be filled up....keke bought a dress for christmas and not going to show jon till that day....very nice and i'm very satisfied with it.... but need to gain a little bit more weight....have been losing a lot of weight.... now only 40+ kg....grrrrr.... then everyone kept saying i'm suffering from malnutrition....I'M NOT! jon stole my food...hahaha...just kidding....cant let him see or i jia lat.... he'll whack me upside down and left right centre....sleepy but cant sleep lelz...fed up!then next morning like dead corpse again.... somemore have to teach new the new staff who's older than me by 18 yrs....feel weird....hmmmm.... force myself to sleep liao....zzzzzzz

Friday, November 12, 2004 . 11/12/2004 01:34:00 am

oh well went for my shopping therapy again...bought two tops and one ring with my fav butterfly on it...keke....supposed to be saving but oh well....still save a bit ma.... work with blur blur today and as usual still very blur and still eat sotong from old chang kee today...haha.... my unpaid leave for the 4th dec almost not approved becos my management knew i'm gonna tender my resignation letter soon....writting my prayer diary that me and jon agreed to do as an everyday thing when he go aussie and we could share when he comes back....felt good doing that....like i'm writing a letter to God.... so cool like that....love you God!

Tuesday, November 09, 2004 . 11/09/2004 11:52:00 pm

sian.....pissed off with contract that nvr seem to end....angry at the fact that i spend money like drinking water...sigh....these few days has been tiring and lots of stuffs seems undone....have to get the pillows everything clean before jon comes back so he'll have nice pillow and bedsheets to sleep.... miss him and think of him while i'm doing my facial....but things are better than last time cos i remember i'll miss him so bad when he went for thailand trip...now better cos i think i got myself prepared this time round a couple of mths back...but of course miss his smile and voice....and belly...keke... well reluctant to go to work tomorrow and worried for finding another new job.... well very sucky to always have this kind of feeling....need to plan my budget to make sure i have enough to spend....trying hard to save to let my boy boy know i can save...but it's hard though i must admit....worse than goin on a diet...cos normally will spend huge amts then save on food....now nvr spent much but must save.... but i know i can do it to make sure we can have a comfy home next time....the tot of this plan makes me happy!:)

hmmm but really getting worried for not having the next job cos i knew God wanted me to quit this job as i can't do things according to what He wants...e.g, becos of current job i have to forget abt going to BMC which makes me sad and sian..... and arranging a schedule to church is another issue...being tired and wanting to go back home is another thing cos doing shift work and thurs normally working at dr teng.... so very shag.... and i think also another issue is i'm starting to "worship money" rather than Him.. cos every month my sales is definitely the highest and it's hard to focus on Him.... and my dear Heavenly Father is challenging me to not wait for the bonus and leave the job and to stop doing sales completely.... so far all the sales i done,i passed it to my colleagues and don't dare to take a single cent.... so ya it has been good cos i dont feel pressured to get more sales.... Father in everything that u wants me to do and to obey, i will do it becos i nvr forget that u will not shortchanged us and You always have a great plan for all of us..thank u father for all that was given to me....i love u Lord!........and not forgetting my jon too....
*yawn* well job has been quite tough for the past few days...i think it's the oh i'm gonna resign mood and i am really so slack... well this place sucks like hell and i'm yearning to leave asap! but well was thinking of quitting early next yr so i can get my 13 mth but then God was telling me to leave the job like now....wa i really damn shocked sia...cos my money just fly away like that... i didnt knew why until last wed.... i realise becos of this job i cant do what God would want me to do.... i admit the pay is good and i can spend like siao....but if i cant serve God and do wat he wants me to do, why should i stay?and i believe God will provide when i trust Him... i went for an interview for engineering asst and i feel it's a good job.. ppl might think that i am crazy but i really felt God telling me that i would get this job and i msg all the guys to pray for the interview...that's the 1st time i msg them to pray for me... i know it sounds crazy but the voice seems so clear and obvious.... it didnt happen to me at all b4... and i was scared to tell ppl about this cos they might think i'm siao.... in the past i was too absorbed just wanting to get a job that's why i took up the spa job.... i regret it and i learnt it the hard way.... God could have provide me a better one if not for my stubborn behaviour... well....gonna finish the bond so no worries...
Jon has went to aussie a few days but nvr called me once....only msg me.... but strangely this time round, i dont miss him so badly till i got moody or something... it was alright just that i'll think of him....but luckily shawna and liana spent time with me....feel happy though cos i always wanted to spend more time with the girls....hee....it was fun on sun when aletheia, liana and shawna came to look for me at my work place and we went for dinner.... it was fun and i really enjoyed it... today liana,shawna and me went to cafe cartel to makan....food was bad for me but had fun talking to them....and we were the last to leave cos i complain of the food and the manager changed a plate for me... :P