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Wednesday, July 27, 2005 . 7/27/2005 08:22:00 am

Yawn so sleepy! only had a few hrs sleep... have been very busy recently and was sick on monday... couldnt wake up at all and kept having headache.... hee but went with jean and jerome in the evening to the 2nd hand jap store.... quite cool though and it was good... quite scary cos SF abt to start... really seems so fast... but it's good cos everyone's gonna rock on for God! hee hee.... so excited.... but though most of the time i'm at the main entrance helping out! haha saw jon and ted yesterday and they kept calling me lao ban cos they're in my group... hee then i was talking a lot of nonsense to them till they weep.. ke ke.... but ya lolz everyone needs to relag a bit cos all of them so stressed out..... jon so poor thing.... was so busy till he fell sick as well.... but i'm proud of him cos al He's doing is for God and he is really diligent for the Lord... and i'm so encouraged to see everyone chipping their little bit even though everyone is so stressed abt everything but ya they're still able to get along and work in harmony! i thank God for all my brothers and sisters for the love and care that they have shown to one another even though sometimes things might seem bad, God changed it for the better.... thank You Lord for this bond that You have given to us and let us not fail to remember the love and care You showed for us... i know that You will definitely enjoy Sonic Fest cos it's gonna be a day of Yours Lord.... You'll be sitting at the heavenly throne to watch it! yeah!!!!!

Sunday, July 24, 2005 . 7/24/2005 12:51:00 am

Well now is a busy period for me... so crazy sia! But its good cos it trains my stress level... and a good training ground for serving more in SE.... I was thinkin of my plans for next year and ya more or less i know what to do... just that i need to pray for a clear direction and knows wat i'm going to do.. a lot of things on my head cos it's not easy for ppl like me to plan so far when i'm the kind who is planning day by day... or at most a week... you wont see me filling up my diary on wat i have to do for the week after... it'll only be till end of week at most... unless i'm having facial or pedicure appt... or ppl's birthday i know... hurst! so ya lalz... God is giving me a challenge to see things beyond and plan better... cos i remmeber wat john says... if i say i wanna serve more in SE what are the things i need to do? planning is crucial cos it leads you to a sense of direction and purpose of going about how to get things done.... :)

was quite affected by the fact that my manager was forced to resign for some reasons... made me think a lot and i begin to think of the fact that ppl wants to climb up the corporate ladder... you must be someone who is scheming and alert enough to do so... cos ppl will envy and push u down to the bottom pit... was just thinking if ppl will use this strive for God and not fame and fortune.... for u cant take it with u when u die... money is impt but it doesnt take up the major part of life! only God! for He's the sole provider and a loving Father... His rewards are far more amazing than anything! how i wish ppl see this and that they do not seek the worldly desire but the desire for God... like wat pastor Edwin says, we must not get contented with only the ten thousands who are saved... we can only be contented when all the nations are saved and they all rejoice in the Lord!It's nt easy as evangelism is not easy.... but i know by praying God do makes miracles happen.... thank You Lord and let the nations declare Your name and glory... may all who sees You bow down to their feet and worship You... for You alone are worthy to be praised.... thank You God for placing a heart for me in SEwhere i can glorify You and learn to be like You....

Monday, July 18, 2005 . 7/18/2005 11:21:00 pm

Hmmmm busy day again at work... running two jobs today... but ya i had fun...though early morning got irritated by one rude caller.. but ya God does train my patience everytime... To live is Christ, to die is gain!

Amazed by this sister who has this pure and innocent heart for God and His ppl... hmmm what can i say? amazing words come out from her and i know God is using her to speak into my life too.. i thank God for her... a lovely and beautiful personality that God has given her.. Her heart for the lost ones... Lord the lost sheeps that You want us to direct back to You Lord.... You see this beautiful heart for You Lord and i know You're constantly moulding every aspect of her to stand up and take on more roles for You... she might find it hard but i know You're constantly guiding her and supporting her.. You wouldnt allow us to bear something we cant take it... I was overwhelmed and blown away by her response when she told me she went to a club one day and was just standing there and wondering about a day when all the ppl there will worship You and sing praises for You... wat a beautiful heart Lord You have given to her... Thank You for having this sister in my life and in this SE family that You have planted her in... thank You Lord for my sister whom You chose to be Your child... Your child named Shawna..... :)

Sunday, July 17, 2005 . 7/17/2005 08:34:00 pm

Had a good rest today... headed with jon to delifrance for our breakfast.. went to chinatown to get the old skool brick game that my dad loves to play... Was feeling bored as i was alone by then and was just walking by north bridge road when i saw a banner"flea market every weekend"... was so happy that i went and saw really a lot of nice stuffs... not clothings all these but those old skool stuffs like cameras,toys,accessories,etc... i was reminded of my childhood days and i really miss it a lot then..Like life used to be so carefree and fun with just having my siblings... no expectations or chioce of lifestyle... just enjoying as each day goes by... saw some of the toys that i would usually play at my granny's place... so fun.... alot of stuffs there that really made me really just smiling n enjoying at them.... remember the weekends when it'll always be family outings to shopping ctrs or to the beach... always anticipating for weekends to come.... birthdays are always fun as i will always have it very "grand"... always have the favourite cake and dolls that i love or make up kits that my mum will notice and buy before hand w/o telling me... favourite foods are always laid out for me and not forgetting our ice cream!!! that's why i used to be very fat when i was young... hahaha!!! and we'll take lotsa pics!:)

hmmm enough of my memories or i'll go on for months... oh well headed home afterwards and talk to ah gui for a while and surfing net... just chilling out at home and doing nothing... yea thats what i love abt sundays! just rotting and doing nothing! hahaha!!!

just a tot... i really thank God that my name is not called "wu mei"... imagine ppl starting to look at my brows when they called out my name... boy i think i'll get depressed everyday... hahaha! i remember i used to be very silly by applying liquor on my brows thinking that it'll grow... but it's ok it DIDN'T work!!!! told some of my friends and they really laugh like siao! sigh... but it's actually funny! hahahaha!!!

Thinking of how i'm going to start a nail course... haiy just have to get it started if not i'll not be doing it... just like i say i want to learn dancing and till now still nothing.... hurst.... when can i stop getting so busy? hmmm think my time managment still needs improvement... my budget too... hmmm going to sit down and plan my budget and stuff that i wanna do for the coming next year... will be taking up steps definitely and was thinking of going for a short mission trip next year... but the planning must be good also... ya must pray for wisdomm and God's planning... cant always think of mine only... hee.. but God's calling for me is really a bit high and i'm afraid i cant meet up His expectations... but the race i'll continue Lord... for i thank You for reminding me time and time again for the things that You have done for me... if life w/o You... i dont know where i'll be... only You have the answer... Love you Father! Thank You for even reminding me to count my blessings and not worry abt things going on...

Matthew 7 25:34
Therefore i tell you,do not worry about your life,what you will eat or drink;or about your body,what you will wear.Is not life more important than food,and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air;they do not sow or reap or store away barns,and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.Are you not much more valuable than they?Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?And why do you worry about clothes?See how the lilies of the field grow.They do not labor or spin.Yet i tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.If that is how God clothes the grass of the field,which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire,will he not much more clothe you,O you of little faith?So do not worry,saying 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'For the pagans run after all these things,and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness,and all these things will be given to you as well.Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,for each day has enough trouble of its own.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005 . 7/12/2005 09:01:00 pm

Ohhh boy am i not happy and excited!!!! will be going with jon next month to UK for abt 2 weeks to visit his relatives! i'm so happy!!! Well never expect that i can go ang moh country... quite scared to go there cos i scared i wont be able to understand what they say.... and one more thing that i'm troubled is the taking leave part..... hmmmm how to tell my boss abt it... she will definitely flare up! but it's ok lolz... since i decided to go there liao! pray and see how...

Work has been good so far just that i find it a little bit boring cos nothing much to do... planning my savings plan also.. havent really succeed yet but i'm still trying... was planning my budget with him and it blew me away... sob sob... been good these few days... didnt buy anything except food and like two shorts thats so cute then jon got it for me... i wanted to pay but he was saying it looks really cute and insist on buying.. so i'll be a gentlewoman.... hahaha!!! no lalz... think could be i bought him the pair of slippers in bangkok.. hmmmm i do still have the bangkok fever and really reluctant to do anything... but God is just reminding me not to be a lazy bone but work hard to be a light... an example... hmmm still trying cos i'm weak but He's strong... maybe becos these few months really got a lot of things happening that's making me tired that's why i really wanted a long break...

Brother went to watch Good Charlotte concert today... lucky thing i dont have to accompany him... initially he wanted to go but no kaki... then was thinking of going with him but i really feel sian to watch their concert... it reminds me of the movie named the hitchhiker something one... cant remember the exact title.... so boring and i really feel like sleeping... but jon enjoy like siao... wat to do.. ang moh can understand better than me.... haha really catch no ball... only know the robot is depressed and thats it... :(

mama and papa birthday coming up... prepare presents for them liao... all of us going but aiya too bad my bro dont have gf... i always pester him to get one but he dont seem interested... he seems more keen in front of the pc... think i get him a robotic wife next time! hahaha!!! well he's waiting for the one! hmmm wonder if the gf will look like mariah carey or britney a not? ke ke cos that's his idols.... seeing my bro grow bigger makes me feel old... but ya happy that he's going army... will miss him though... but hee was thinking of "borrowing his cupboard" while he's away... cos my cupboard is hopelessly packed! and i still have 4 big bagfuls of clothes to sell away.... wonder how i can get a place for flea mrkt.... hmmmm...

Ohhh gonna stop cos need to do a lot of stuffs that's lining up on my to-do list... oh well all for God! to live is Christ,To die is gain! :)

Tuesday, July 05, 2005 . 7/05/2005 11:21:00 pm

Gee had a good time and also bad time at bangkok.. good thing is i can spend lotsa time with jon which we havent really spent time together for the past few months.... and i get to shop and buy lotsa stuffs for myself.... hur hur! didnt really get to buy for other girls as i was really rushing for time cos i'm only goin for the weekend... didnt have chance to buy for my 2nd sis too... only got for my 1st sis.... shit! but ya it's still good! bad thing is i got rash and it's CONTAGIOUS!!!! some chupid insect bite me!!! and i am on mc for 2 days becos of it! and i didnt really get to shop so so much as i planned as MBK got nothing to buy... all for old aunties and uncles like that... dont know who saYS it's good... grrrr....

Day 1
Reached bangkok at abt 12a.m... waitd to clear custom and only reach hotel at 1+... serve by one girly fellow and waited for a long time due to some errors... slept at 2+..

Day 2
woke up at 6 and headed for breakfast with jon and my family.... food taste so "delicious"... i only had cereal...was too early so headed back to room for a thai massage with jon as Chaktuchak mrkt opens at 9+... was good and the lady crack all my bones for me... haha! very cheap also! when we reach the mrkt, it was really huge!!! bought 5 pairs of shoes for myself,3 skirts and lotsa tops... quite disappointed as the bags there look really ugly! bottoms also not that nice.. but shoes very cheap and nice.... :) had lunch at the roadside stall and very dirty sia! but the food was good... i like the ppl there cos all very nice... hee... then we headed back with 4 bagfuls of stuffs and mainly mine... poor jon was carrying all my stuffs for the past 6-7 hrs.. and they're really heavy... luckily he's always carrying his effects bag that is heavy then can tahan the weight of all those bags.. then headed back to hotel... oh ya the mrt still very old skool sia... using those tickets we used last time... and i kept thinking i'm in spore and wantd to see how long i still need to wait for the train and i'm not used to throwing litter on the floor... went back to hotel to rest for a while then headed to eat kfc and it was very cheap and good... then had ice-cream for dessert... had a stroll at the roadside stalls then take tok tok back... the guy so scary sia... like i owe him $... ride so fast!! but quite shiok! hahaha!!! then ended the day by talking to my family and watch the poor lady doing massage for my irritating father who's trying to be amusing!

day 3
had breakfast with boy and headed to that dreadful MBK! wasted time there! only manage to do pedi+mani and jon and i do foot massage... the guy doing massage for jon is very muscular... reminds me of shawn d... haha... then had some fried food that's yummy! then nothing liao then go to siam square where the stuffs are better! had bubble tea and headed to pizza place to eat.. went to one vintage shop and the stuffs quite nice... quite ex... bought 1 cardigan there and the salesgirl very pretty! so sweet like that... hee hee... really very pretty sia.. a bit like the joycie pattern but she's of different charisma... then headed back to hotel cos his back pain... then we went to night mrkt to try the thai food but jon's food not nice... mine quite nice.. haha!

day 4
Chill out day with boy boy cos both of us become dead dogs by then... wanted to do massage but no time and have to pack bag to leave... really enjoy myself...

Boy and me planning to go for a holiday at bali or thailand again at end of year... to spend many many time together! yeah!Really thank God that He gave the two of us this chance to spend quality time together and also with my family.... Thank You God! :)