Thursday, March 30, 2006 . 3/30/2006 11:55:00 am
Recently been having late nights... no good... must try to sleep early... must have discipline!!! Oh i'm inspired to go dancing but now is the $ thing... hahaha cos now interning only not much though... but it's ok... hee hee... God will provide for my interest as well... hmmm ya He wants me to trust as well.. like wat drey says to just trust and let go.. a bit painful but ya learning to release to Him... it is a cruel fact for me if i know someone so close to me had to go hell.... but ya maybe she accepted Him before she dies.. i dunno... but ya... learn to trust...things are not so busy now for me.... but emails do come a lot.. feeling sick yesterday also... but now better! thanks for the prayers!!!
Tuesday, March 28, 2006 . 3/28/2006 11:01:00 pm
oh today was a beautiful day... hmmm though things happen but i know God meant it for good.. it's hard for me to accept them at moments, but i know His plans are good... He promised me for the things He will accomplish in my life journey with Him... i trust in His unfailing work and way...I sent this old lady home today after talking to her outside church... she resembles Jon's granny just that she's not ang moh.. but it's so amazing... she's a christian and asked abt the services here at COOS... i sent her back and she was holding my hand at one point and i felt like how my grandma used to hold my hand like that last time.. i do miss that... i'm not sure if she is in Heaven a not but i dun wanna know it if it's bad news.. but i know this lady would cos she loves God.. i feel so happy seeing her... she cheered me up after a long tiring day.... i believe God sent His angel to comfort me... The first time i hear this song it reminds me of my grandma... it breaks my heart and i really hope that God will keep her in a safe place..
Fly Away
"When will you be home?"
she asks as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer
to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go,
I know she bleeds and yet she says to me
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you.
Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away Well these few days are just busy and a lot of tots just kept coming through my mind... i always love the idea that i do not have to think so much... but recently my mind works vey fast.. or hmmm at least it's beginning to work at normal speed.. but it doesnt make me feel good as i am not used to thinking so much.. and also lately been spending less time with God as i would have.... it affects me as i would love to talk to Him so much daily... too many brain blockage stuffs... learning to release some of them as i guess it might have been due to the heavily packed schedule and many stuffs going on everyday for me... but God has been still here watching over me and supporting me.. i really thank God for loving me so much... even when i'm not worthy of it... noone can ever grasps the fathom of His love for each and everyone of us.. it's just amazing and beautiful... thank You Lord... *hugs*
Thursday, March 16, 2006 . 3/16/2006 03:01:00 am
man i cant really sleep.. well maybe it's the cup of coffee that causes it... hmmm just feeling so heavy after the winning soul conference.... like i kept thinking and ya remembering God's commission for us.... to win souls and build His kingdom... that we do face problems and trials in life... we need to get out of the whole "it's about me" idea... the harvest is ripe but sad to say the workers are only these few... we say we are christians... have we live our lives as one? i'm convicted of that.. the words that i used when i'm angry or upset... do i feel for the one sweeping the floor and wanting to withness to him about God's goodness or do i walk by and pretend nothing happen? or dont even realise that there are lost souls everywhere... like wat david says, all of them wants to be saved!! sometimes it could be the way we talk to them.. for this, i need to ask God to grant me the wisdom.. sometimes the fear of rejection and judgement from people... i am afraid too.. i struggled but God says dont give up cos i was just telling God it seems so easy for david to win souls.. God says it's not easy i know... but it wasnt easy for david as well... he took a lifetime and perservere... it takes time but dont give up.. when david ends the conference, God get me to give him a hug... i was afraid at first but i went forward and hug him... then he told me:" Don't give up hope sweetheart"... it was like God speaking to me through him... i was on the verge to tears and i still remember the smile he gave to me.. Lord i really do wanna win souls for me... i dun know how but i know You'll lead me the way... thank you Lord... I love you and i wont give up.... *hugs*Friday, March 10, 2006 . 3/10/2006 09:54:00 pm
hurst today nt good!of all times i must fall sick is during my busy season.... head has been feeling giddy the whole day but i didnt really rest much... cleaning up my room and talking to my mum... oh so cool man!!! my mum has this bag tat she used for her wedding and it's been 30 years but the condition is excellent!!! i'm gonna use it for my wedding next time... my mum is really funny... she kept all the bags that me and my sisters used when we were like 3+ till 5 and she still kept them... and best part... she's goin to give my children next time and i'm like huh!! she was so contented and she started putting all the bags nicely and refuse to let me have a second look thinking i would "use them"... haha!! but it's really so cool to see the stuff i have when i was young.. my mum even suggested that i can wear her evening gown for my wedding dinner but the patten a bit orbit sia!! i dun dare to wear... :pbut i manage to get these 2 skirts that was more than 30 years ago from her... it's so cool and nice.... and it's like very new!! cos she said she bought it for over $80+ during her time and she said the material is the very good kind.. i mean of course la!! i wun really bear to buy a skirt for $80+ not to mention for her time... but ya my mum quite havoc in a way like to dress up.. but the nice kind la not those very weird kind... but ya it's been a good day after all despite feeling the heatiness in my body and having the stupid headache thats killing me.. cleaning up the room is fulfilling cos man my room looks as though it kena ransack sia!!
Thursday, March 02, 2006 . 3/02/2006 12:17:00 pm
Oh oh my first attempt to hold brownie!!! He's so light!!! hmmm i think less than 2kg... hur hur then we bought him a leash that is brown, science diet for puppy and a nice blue tray for his milk and food.. hee hee... bring him out earlier to play but he so scared till he shivered badly.. then bring him home again.... but after i hug him then he ok liao.... ;) haiy gotta go work soon and cant accompany him longer... he's going to miss me... but never mind... in the meantime God will help me take care of him... hee hee... oh ya and he woke up very early like before 6 and climb out from the box... my 2 sisters dun dare to carry and make a big din to wake my brother up... poor brownie!! must be terrified by the 2 female monsters~~! then end up i woke up at 6+ cos they're really so noisy... and i slept at 3a.m lelz!!!! chupid man!!! haha but never mind can accompany him longer~~
Oh guys dun you all think my doggy is very cute!!!!! it's name is called BROWNIE!!! Err cos brown colour ma!!! hee hee.... i'm a happy ger now!!! lalalalala!!! :)
Wednesday, March 01, 2006 . 3/01/2006 09:21:00 am
Oh man i'm just so tired these couple of days... guess it's the weather.. hmmm ah boy having his exams today... i'm really impressed by the fact that he can still study.... my brain have gone rusty since the day i completed my last exam... hahaha!! i prefer to work than study.. but he also bo pian... if not few months back he can go back to UK liao.. eh then can eat kripsy kreme le!!! hee hee... then drink tea till lao ___!!! haha!! hurst i just sold away my phone.. but never mind i'll get a new one in 2 weeks time... hopefully i can sign a free phone!! :)hmmm i really enjoy reading the devotional stuffs at crosswalk... never failed to hit the point at some point of my life... when i was down and out till i came back to God... everyone has a story of their own... i had mine too... but it's a constant moulding for one's walk with Him..